Sometimes we just cannot keep our secrets. They screams out loud on our head and it's really hard to keep it inside.
We want to keep it so much, but at the same time we want to scream them, scream so loud that every single one in the world could hear us. That's what I feel.
I really want to quiet this secrets, keep them on a place that even me cannot face them, it should be easy, oh it really should. But even life isn't easy, what can I say about what I think...
What is the thing that scream in your head right now? Could you say it? Could you say it out loud?
-Silence-
Oh, I wish sometimes on completely silence inside of me. Those times could be so good and I have to admit that is so rare on me. Since when? Since you.
Don't take it personal like I -always- do. I wish to know how, when and why were you. Since were you.
I can't just do it anymore, not by myself. I wanted to count on you, but if even I can't handle this, why should I give it to you? That's not fair. And it's not because I think that you can't take care of me, I really do. I just can't do it when I insist in say somethings like: "I wouldn't stay with you".
I keep saying things away that is not what I have inside on me. I keep myself wishing you, wanting you and waiting for you. Even if I never get up to take a chance.
